looovin, is what I got

up and up

If I were to stop and sort of zoom out from my life, in an attempt to get the whole picture, I would see that in recent months, my life has changed a lot. And for the better. My relationships have been getting healthier, I have a good job, some money in the bank, food in my tummy, and people that love me. And I should be feeling good, right?

Yet I’m still not “happy”. I still wake up in the morning and think more about what I don’t have than what I do have. I still strive for things and feelings I know won’t keep me satisfied. And I think this is indicative of my human nature, there’s a sort of discontentment that I can’t shake. In my mind, it’s almost like I’m asking myself continuously “Is this all there really is?” 

I guess that’s when I remember that its more than being content on surface matters, I have to remember to be content in the Lord. To know that even if everything were taken away from me, to still be happy because I know Him. To know that these temporal things, no matter how great they seem, simply will not keep me happy. Because I was made for that which is eternal. 

The tricky part is remembering that consistently.